Prince of Muck 2021. 1 video 76:38
Auld Lang Syne 2015. 1 video 48:38
Made in Tokyo 2013. 6 videos, 20 photos
Compete 2013. 1 video 05:45
Silverdust 2012, 1 video 21:38, 2 photos
Belgrade Forest 2012, 1 video, 41:19
Kemerburgaz Hills 2012, 1 video, 1 photo
Turkish Tiles 2012, 2 photo's
Minibar 2011, 1 photo
Best to forget 2011, 1 video, 47:47
With Love 2011, 6 videos, 7 photos
Lover get down 2010, 6 photos
Northern Night 2010, 1 photo
Rabbits can`t swim 2010, 12 photos
Come Spring 2009, 1 FILM, 22:45
Don`t hit me I love you 2009, 1 film, 11:18
Portraits 2005-2012, 5 photos
Grosse Freiheit 2005, 5 photos
Agonist 2008, 2 photos
Solo 2005, 5 photos
Texas Falls 2004, 2 photos
Floating 2005, 3 photos
Alice 2004, 1 film, 12:29
Useless is blood 2004, 1 film, 01:00
Puttani 2000, 1 video, 6 photos
WORKS: Don`t hit me I love you
2009, 1 film, 11:18

still image from 'Don't hit me I love you', 2009, 11:14

“That’s all I can think of: to be loved and want to be loved. And want to be needed. And want to be wanted. Mostly I want to be wanted. Being wanted means they need you and they love you.”
Kathleen St. Clare. December 2008

People automatically repeat patterns they grew up with in new relationships. Some people are thus unfortunate they grow up in dysfunctional families and become codependent. St. Clare, who plays herself in her own past in this film, was such a unfortunate child. She was mentally abused by her mother, while her father just ignored her. She saw her father physically abusing her mother on a regular basis. Subsequently, St. Clare had two marriages that were both violent. Her first husband abused her physically, the second verbally and psychologically. St. Clare in the end did manage to break out of both her abusing marriages and was therefore able to look back on her codependent past and expose herself in this very personal portrait.

'Don’t hit me I love you' shows a woman who beats herself repeatedly. Jansen believes that codependency is a captivity where the same behavior is repeated in forced repetition, without free will. The image of St. Clare hitting herself shows how she ‘chose’ to live with people that kept her in the same degrading position and thus compulsively sustained the abuse. Seen as a physical metaphor, St. Clare ended up beating herself without a possibility to stop it.
With this portrait Jansen tries to give the audience a sense of how St. Clare must have felt: under constant threat, powerless, longing for freedom, imprisoned by her own thoughts and behavior.
The 'inner-voice' is autobiographical; the lines spoken are the words of St. Clare reliving and reflecting on her own past. The portrait is the result of an intimate collaboration, during which the actress and the director slowly unraveled St. Clare’s story.

Countries of production - France, The Netherlands

Credits
Kathleen St. Clare As herself
Director/editor Cindy Jansen
Sound design Henk Jelle de Groot

 

Prince of Muck 2021. 1 video 76:38
Auld Lang Syne 2015. 1 video 48:38
Made in Tokyo 2013. 6 videos, 20 photos
Compete 2013. 1 video 05:45
Silverdust 2012, 1 video 21:38, 2 photos
Belgrade Forest 2012, 1 video, 41:19
Kemerburgaz Hills 2012, 1 video, 1 photo
Turkish Tiles 2012, 2 photo's
Minibar 2011, 1 photo
Best to forget 2011, 1 video, 47:47
With Love 2011, 6 videos, 7 photos
Lover get down 2010, 6 photos
Northern Night 2010, 1 photo
Rabbits can`t swim 2010, 12 photos
Come Spring 2009, 1 FILM, 22:45
Don`t hit me I love you 2009, 1 film, 11:18
Portraits 2005-2012, 5 photos
Grosse Freiheit 2005, 5 photos
Agonist 2008, 2 photos
Solo 2005, 5 photos
Texas Falls 2004, 2 photos
Floating 2005, 3 photos
Alice 2004, 1 film, 12:29
Useless is blood 2004, 1 film, 01:00
Puttani 2000, 1 video, 6 photos

Video On Demand
31-03-2022
in The Netherlands via Picl and Worldwide via: Amazon Prime Video, Google Play, iTunes, Vimeo
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08-02-2022
February 10 2022
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